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I Owe You an Explanation About What’s Going On
Hi Friends and Supporters, I feel like I’ve sent you the “here’s what’s going on” email a few times, but thank you for your patience. There’s a lot of moving parts and changes being made and I think it’s important that you know what’s going on. There are 3 big changes happening. First, changing…
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The State of Things (XN Update)
A while back, I shared a story with my stream community and want to share it with you, too. It was something of a spiritual “vision” I had one day while praying for direction. (I’m a pretty conservative guy, but I’ve been learning more about listening to God, and He has only done this,…
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A Year of Contrasts (2025 XtianNinja Year-In-Review)
Reflecting on 2025 is complicated because it has been a year of profound contrast. In the same year, I’ve spoken on global stages and sat alone with a heavy, broken heart. My channel started the year with great momentum but ended with the lowest numbers I’ve seen in four years. At the beginning of…
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Family Update: Thanksgiving & Life 37 Days In
For those who haven’t been following along, Anita entered a residential treatment program a little over a month ago to work through some serious mental health challenges. It’s been 37 days as of today, and she’s really been getting a lot out of the program—especially the individual counselling. I’m going to keep this update…
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Personal Update: Reflections on My Sabbatical & a Brief Delay
I’m writing this personal update with those who’ve been walking with me for a while – leadership team, supporters, donors, volunteers, viewers – but a lot of people have discovered me through this crisis. If you’re new here and wondering who I am and what this is all about, check out my Digital Missions…
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An Important Update About My Work with TACO and XtianNinja Online Missions
To my donors, friends, prayer partners, subscribers, and the whole of TACO and the XtianNinja FamSquad: Right now Anita is in a highly structured residential setting receiving focused, specialist care. It’s the kind of environment hospital models haven’t been able to provide, and it is giving her a real chance to stabilise with dignity.…
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Why I Quit on Stream Today: What happened today, what’s underneath it, and what I need right now
Short version: I’m carrying more than I can manage, so the glitch felt like a collapse. Computer crashed and then I crashed. What happened on stream Anyone who has streamed for any length of time knows that glitches happen. “It wouldn’t be a Twitch stream if everything went right!”, we say. I’m used to…
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Family Update: Processing the Goodbye
If you’d rather watch than read, I shared this update in two places: a shorter 17-minute edited video on YouTube (link) and a longer 34-minute version on Twitch (link). Both cover the same heart I’ll share here, but if you prefer to listen, those are ready for you. The Story So Far For four…
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Descheneau Family Update: A Miracle of Provision and the Next Step in Anita’s Care
Over the weekend, God provided in ways I can hardly believe. In just three days, we raised over $17,000 of the $27,000 needed for Anita’s treatment. That’s nothing short of miraculous. It means we’re able to secure her place at Valiant and she moves in tomorrow. An unfortunate surprise came when I was told…
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My Family Is Breaking: We Need Urgent Help
You’ve seen my struggles on stream. What you haven’t seen is the hidden battle my wife Anita has been fighting for years. Now her doctors say there’s one chance left for real healing. We need urgent help: https://www.givesendgo.com/GJNMD
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“They Told My Friend to 💀 Themselves”
Ministry isn’t just happening in counselling offices and churches anymore—it’s happening live, online, in real time. During one of my livestreams, a viewer came into chat, shaken and angry. They had just witnessed something heartbreaking—a classmate had told their friend to end their life. They had spent 20 minutes trembling in fear and frustration,…
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Big News: My Bookshop Is Open With Exclusive Discounts!
I’m excited to announce that my bookshop is officially open! It features a variety of resources, including sermon collections, Bible studies, a devotional, and my newest book, The Art of Digital Influence. Each title is crafted to inspire and equip you on your faith journey. Whether you’re exploring God’s Word, seeking encouragement, or learning to…
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Can I Ask For a Small Favour That Could Make a Big Difference?
As many of you know, I’ve been dedicated to reaching the lost, lonely, and disconnected through my work as a digital pastor. Whether it’s gamers, remote workers, or those struggling with mental health challenges, my mission is to bring God’s love and connection to those who feel isolated in the online world. Over time,…
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XtianNinja’s Story: From Traditional Ministry to Digital Outreach (My Testimony/Biography)
In crafting this comprehensive story, I drew from a multitude of sources, including personal experiences, podcast transcripts, interviews, and testimonials. With the assistance of ChatGPT, I’ve been able to weave these elements together into a cohesive narrative. This is the story of my journey, from traditional pastoral ministry to becoming XtianNinja, a digital missionary…
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Taking A Big, Scary Leap
First, welcome to everyone from Ko-Fi who’s transitioning from the newsletter over there to here! I know there have been a lot of site changes over the past few years as I’ve been growing, so it means a lot to have you leapfrog one more time. ♥ I just did something that freaks me…