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A Year of Contrasts (2025 XtianNinja Year-In-Review)
Reflecting on 2025 is complicated because it has been a year of profound contrast. In the same year, I’ve spoken on global stages and sat alone with a heavy, broken heart. My channel started the year with great momentum but ended with the lowest numbers I’ve seen in four years. At the beginning of…
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Torture for Views: The Death of Jean Pormanove and What It Teaches Us About Streaming, Exploitation, and Digital Missions
This article is about the on-stream death of French streamer Raphaël Graven. It covers what’s known (as best I could learn of Aug 20, 2025), the warnings that were ignored, and the wider culture that turns suffering into spectacle. Strong content ahead. You can also watch my full breakdown and reflections on YouTube here:…
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“They Told My Friend to 💀 Themselves”
Ministry isn’t just happening in counselling offices and churches anymore—it’s happening live, online, in real time. During one of my livestreams, a viewer came into chat, shaken and angry. They had just witnessed something heartbreaking—a classmate had told their friend to end their life. They had spent 20 minutes trembling in fear and frustration,…
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The Mission Field Your Church Is Overlooking: Reaching Digital Communities
Summary In this post, I want to share highlights from a recent conversation I had with the Sunday School at Markham Chinese Alliance Church, hosted by Pastor Nathan Kwan. I was invited to discuss the heart of my ministry: reaching the lost and disenfranchised through digital platforms like Twitch. This post addresses key questions…
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The Wednesday Check-In: How TACO’s Discord Provides Digital Christian Community
Listen to “Stream Story” Podcast Episodes here: In today’s digital world, communities are finding new ways to gather, connect, and support each other, even when they’re separated by thousands of miles. The TACO Discord has grown into a vibrant online community, acting as a digital church providing pastoral care for the digital age. Recently,…
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Alone, Vulnerable & Scammed: Escaping an Emotionally Manipulative Scam with the Help of Digital Community
Listen to “Stream Story” Podcast Episodes here: We were deep into Nier: Automata, fighting off enemies and discussing the game’s heavier themes when the chat took an unexpected turn. One of our regulars, Ferric, dropped in, and I greeted him with a hearty, “How are you doing, man?” His response: “Not good… not good…
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Crowdsourcing a Complicated Emotional Situation – Stream Stories
Listen to “Stream Story” Podcast Episodes here: It came out of nowhere, completely unplanned. We were in the middle of playing NieR:Automata—a game full of philosophical questions and complex moral choices—when a viewer named “Kit the Dragon” started pouring out a complicated and emotional situation: “My housemate admitted they have feelings for me, and…
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A First Responder’s Story of Tragedy and Trauma – Stream Stories
Listen to “Stream Story” Podcast Episodes here: As a digital pastor with a livestream, I often find myself suddenly hearing stories full of real, raw human emotion—that leave a deep impact on both me and my community. Recently, a police officer opened up during one of my streams, sharing the heart-wrenching account of a…